17 weeks ago I stepped out of my car and headed toward a group of people with a pit in my stomach and unsure of my decision to embark on this adventure again. Upon approaching I soon realized that I did not recognize a single person. I thought eventually someone I knew would come running up but that never happened. Where are the giggling welcome hugs for each person coming towards the group? Where is the gentle reassurance that my decisions are right? Where are my Kaia Sisters, my IKan Run Team and our fearless leader, Casie yelling “YAY, this is going to be great!” Did I take a wrong turn? With a deep heavy sigh I knew I was on my own. I would have to dig deep and find it from within to train hard, harder than I ever have to reach my goals.
During my training I had to do things differently to perform at my best for this race. I decided it was not my run training that I needed to change, but other aspects of my life needed to be tweaked. It was right in front of my face and I couldn’t see it. Finally, the light came on! I needed to get back to basics, KAIA! I reconnected with the goals I set for myself over 3 years ago on the first day I walked into the Sacramento gym. I made new commitments to my nutrition, workouts and to myself. I committed to be at every Kaia class from the first day of the fall brik to race day. I committed to eating healthy like a professional runner, but most importantly, I committed to believe in myself and the goals I have set.
In 2012, I ran the California International Marathon for the first time on a very windy rainy day. My hopes and dreams of qualifying for the Boston Marathon vanished quickly as I did not run the race I had hoped and trained for. I was mentally rocked by my less than perfect performance. After a month of recovery, my fighting spirit emerged with a vengeance. In the summer of 2013, I ran the San Francisco Marathon suffering from an Achilles heel injury. It would be all I could do to finish, but Boston never left my mind. To my surprise, I ran a good race and got a personal record inching my way closer to a qualifying time. Last December, I ran the CIM again, this time is was 26 degrees. Thinking this race is cursed and I would never catch a break I focused on the ultimate goal, Boston. All the stars came together that frosty day. I ran well, better than well, fantastic! The amount of support from my family, friends and my incredible Kaia Sisters, with a sea of Pink Tutus cheering around every turn was spectacular. The roar from the Kaia Cheering Squads would fill me up with such energy I knew it was possible to bring it home. There are no words of appreciation I can convey to each and every Kaia Girl for their undying support. With that, another personal best with a run time of 4:04 and with an amazing run, I still had not qualified needing a finish time of 4 hours or less. I was surprisingly happy knowing I had given it my all, but yet there was unfinished business.
Live hard, train harder has rung in my head for the past 3 years. December 7, 2014 will be my fourth marathon. I’m ready. This will be the day I chase my dream. Whether the stars line up for me or I fall short doesn’t really matter, what matters to me the most is that I believe in myself and my goals I set no matter how big or small. My Promise…this is my dream. I will not give up. EVER!
To my Kaia Sisters at Kaia Sacramento and Kaia Carmichael, IKan Run Team, Casie and Coaches; this is where the dreams start. Thank you for helping me achieve mine!
Thank you so much for sharing Sue. We will be cheering you on mile after mile at the CIM on Sunday! You are a true leader and inspire everyone around you! We can’t wait to see you cross the finish line in BOSTON!
Good luck to everyone running the CIM! We are beyond proud!!
Free posters & markers available on Thursday. Sign up to man a cheering station at the gym!